A Day in My Life || College Life || Freshman Year 2019

Hey guys! Today I have a blogpost that I’m really excited about*! You got to follow me around a day in my life as a college student!

*though to be fair this was a more exciting blogpost in my head than in execution; my life is actually pretty boring, now that I look at it oopsA Day in My Life

My mornings usually start off pretty slowly: this semester, my classes don’t start until 11am, which is reaaaaaally nice. I like to try to be out the door by 9, though, so that I can get some study time in before class. Before I leave, I wake up, get ready for the day, make some coffee, and make my bed.

Then, I usually go do work while eating breakfast in the diner. Sometimes, I’m lazy and go back to my room after eating breakfast and do work there, though I get decidedly less done when I’m in my room.

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I like to sit in the diner for a couple hours, and (hopefully) get some work done, then I head to class! I have between two to five hours of class a day, depending on the day. They’re usually split up in two blocks: one in the morning or early afternoon, and then one in the evening. Some days, I also have orchestra, which is always really fun!

Walking to class takes anywhere from five to twenty minutes, and I put on some music or a podcast to listen to. (I’m looking for podcast recommendations btw: let me know your favorites!). Sometimes I have classes with my friends, which is always really fun!

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After my first block of classes, ending by 1pm or 3pm, depending on the day, I go back to my dorm to eat lunch and to relax a little bit before my evening classes. This is when I usually do my Bible reading, journal (if I’m feeling extra motivated) clean my room, and take a shower as well (the showers are a lot less crowded in the afternoon than they are in the morning).

My roommate is usually out so I get the room to myself then. If I have some spare time, I find some friends and study/hang out with them. Some days I don’t go back to my dorm, and instead find a quiet corner to study.

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After my evening class, I usually eat dinner and hang out with friends. I also do my homework due that night or the next day. I got lucky this semester: if I budget my time right, I only have one assignment to do every night. If I have an exam the next day, I study for them as well. If I have any spare time, I read a book or work on blogging.

My roommate and I usually open up our room for a sort of study hall/hang out spot after dinner, so it’s always a fun time hanging out and studying together with our friends. Sometimes–usually on the weekends–we watch a movie after everyone is done with their work.

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So there you have it! A day in my life as a college (!!!) student! It’s really not as interesting as I hoped it’d be, but I hope it gives you a look into what my life as a college student looks like!


What does a day in YOUR life look like? Are you in college, in high school, or out of school? What is your favorite podcast? Let me know in the comments!

People From 2018 || Blogmas 2018 Day 24

HAPPY

HAPPY

CHRISTMAS

EVEEEEEEEEEEEEE

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Since it’s Christmas Eve, today’s post is me screaming about all the amazing people in my life so that you can spend more time with your family and stuff since you’re not gonna read this anyways XD !!

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For 2018, I’d like to thank-

  • Mom and dad, of course, for always supporting me, especially this year as I GRADUATED!!!! and left for college!!! and for paying for college 😉
  • my brothers D+P for stepping up to fill the house while I’m not here and for their development into actual people this year and not just siblings
  • my relatives, who I got to see this year–my grandparents, cousins, aunts and uncles, as well as extended family–for being awesome and inspiring people who I look up to and love seeing all the time
  • “Grandma” and “grandpa” B and “aunt” L, for praying for me always. It really is a comfort to know that there is always prayer surrounding me!
  • MM, for being my brain, for dealing with me as I finished out stuff and Felt Things, for trusting me enough to talk about your Feelsey Things, and for loving me. We’ve both grown a lot this year.
  • MM–the other one–, for being such a great friend, for sticking with me through everything, for dealing with college life with me, for the college phone calls, and everything else!
  • RF, for all the time we spent together this year. I FINALLY got to know you this year, and I loved every minute of it. Thank you, for that, and for trusting me with your Feelsey Things, for being my older sister, and for the memes XD
  • MF, for being an absolute sweetheart. We only got about a week in 2018 to really get to know each other, but no matter what happens, I’m never going to forget you. I love you!
  • KS, for being my sister, for being one of the first people I told about ^, and for good times every time we hang out
  • AS, for becoming a fun hang-out friend this year: we spent a couple years kinda distant, but this year I feel like we actually hung out quite a bit, and it was a great time! Also for letting me sort Things out with you and for being better at dealing with said Things than I was
  • my roommate (!!!) OS, for being an amaZING roommate. College would be so different if it weren’t for you, and I love rooming with you!
  • my college friends–NH, SK, BS, RW, CS, NSD, MS, AS, AY, JK, and SE–for being who you are. Hanging out with y’all has taught me so much, and I’m so grateful to know you guys. Finding friends at college was one of my biggest concerns, and y’all are truly the biggest blessing. I’m so thankful for you all!
  • my church friends–KG, YT, KT, AM, VM, LW, NW, HT, NW, SV, JS, and KC, for talking about God with me, and worldviews and thoughts and stuff this year while I’ve been at college, and for motivating me to keep going to church even while I’m at college
  • my online friends–Hailey, Mary, Vanessa, Charley, and everyone else who I tried to keep up with on top of my college stuffs–for being there and always up for a quick lil message after a busy day, and for checking up on me every once in a while to make sure I haven’t died yet
  • my SciOly friends–KB, DC, AH, SW, MM, and everyone else–, for becoming friends this year, and not just teammates: while it’s been like that for so many years, this year was truly special
  • GM, for also being frienDS this year, thought we’ve gone from seeing each other 5 times a week to just 2 . . . it’s still a lot and I love you!
  • EC, for mentoring me and talking with me about God and giving me advice about growing up and dealing with the world, and just being one text away if I ever need anything
  • SS, FM, WS, and MHC, for helping mama as I grow up, and for always being there for me if I ever need
  • EW, for being actual friends again this year, for dealing with college things, for being brave and going to college, for trying to make my move to college less intimidating
  • and God, of course, for whom I try to live for every day, some days more than others. Here’s to 2019 being a year of growth and a closer walk with you!

I’ve found that saying thank you to people–even if they never see it!–is a really good way to stay humble and to realize how much people pour into you. Who are YOU thankful for this season?

The Liebster Award! || Blogmas 2018 Day 21

Hey everyone! It’s THREE DAYS until Christmas Eve!!! Are you ready???

I was nominated for the Liebster Award by Shantelle a long time ago oops and today, I’m going to be doing the tag!

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The rules are simple:
1. Thank the person who nominated you
2. Answer the 11 questions they gave you
3. Name 11 facts about you
4. Nominate 11 bloggers to do this tag, and let them know
5. Give them 11 questions to answer

Questions to Answer-

  1. What did you eat for your last meal? The last meal I ate was dinner last night, and I had some dumplings and some noodles! They were very good ^^
  2. What’s the best part of your average week? My music rehearsals! I’ve done music ensembles for 7 years now, and they’re always such a refreshing part of my week: I love it!
  3. Where is the most amazing place you’ve been? Honestly, I think any National Park that is the site of where something happened, such as Gettysburg or Mount Vernon! I think it’s just WILD that stuff I’ve read about that happened hundreds of years ago happened THERE!
  4. One question you’d ask your favorite author? What is the favorite book you’ve ever written, and what is it about?
  5. What’s your favorite thing to do in the summer? Definitely the county fair! It is SO much fun!
  6. Last new author you tried out? (Did you like the book?) The last book I read with a new author was The Lost Girl of Astor Street by Stephanie Morrill. I enjoyed the book; it wasn’t one of my favorites, but it was a good read!
  7. What’s the craziest thing you’ve done? Go to college! It’s kind of insane how much the 3 1/2 months at college has grown me and given me new experiences and insights about so many things!
  8. What’s a character trait you admire in others? Integrity and thoughtfulness.
  9. What’s your favorite genre (to read)? What draws you to it? Right now, it’s contemporary, which is a very new favorite. I like it because it tells the story of what could have actually happened in real life to real people.
  10. What’s one book that you wish more people knew about? If we’re talking books about blogger friends, then Martin Hospitality by Abigayle Claire. If we’re talking about more “traditional” books, then The Green Glass Sea by Ellen Klages!
  11. Do you like to cook/bake? YES!!! It is so fun!!!

About Me

  1. I like to think I’m an organized person, but my room is a MESS!
  2. I was homeschooled my whole life, but now I’m going to a public state university!
  3. My majors are biochemistry and possibly psychology!
  4. I’m obsessed with all things stationary . . . and if you get me any as a gift, I will love you forever!!
  5. I’m a classically trained musician, and I’ve been playing music for 14 years now!
  6. I really want to start an Etsy shop!
  7. I love making lists, usually of things I want to do in the future
  8. I’m coming up on 4 years of blogging!!!
  9. My favorite type of blogpost to read is lifestyle, because I think it’s so interesting what people’s lives are like!
  10. I want to homeschool my kids when I have them
  11. I have read 120 books every year for 4 years (or, which is as long as I’ve been tracking)

Nominations:

  1. Vanessa from It’s Simply Me
  2. Charley from The Miss Charley
  3. Kara from Beautifully Broken
  4. Hailey from Now All I Know is Grace
  5. Maggie from Dreaming of Guatemala
  6. Janelle at The Ramblings of A Bookworm
  7. Ella at February Fairy
  8. Kenzie at Smudged Thoughts
  9. Grace Anne at Totally Graced
  10. Maddy at Little Bit of Sunshine
  11. Mary at Sunshine and Scribblings

My Questions-

  1. What is your favorite winter tradition?
  2. What is your favorite quote?
  3. What is the book you read most recently, and what did you think of it?
  4. What is your favorite boardgame?
  5. What’s a name that you love but won’t ever use for your kids?
  6. If you could learn one physical activity and do extremely well at it, what would it be?
  7. What is your favorite brand? (i.e., Forever 21, Nike, etc; not restricted only to clothing)
  8. What is your favorite trait in a friend?
  9. What is your secret talent?
  10. If you could meet one person that’s currently alive, who would you meet?
  11. What was your favorite moment of 2018?

Thanks again, Shantelle, for tagging me! What is the craziest thing YOU’VE done? Let me know in the comments!

17 Things I Learned While 17 || I’m an ADULT NOW

Hello, friend! Today’s blogspot is an exciting one: I turn EIGHTEEN (18!!!!!) in a few days, and so today, we’re talking about 17 Things I Learned While I was 17!

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  1. Popsockets are the greatest thing to ever exist.
  2. Don’t ask multiple people if they want to hang out . . . if they’re all free, you have an issue. a big one.
  3. Professional people may appear professional . . . until you stalk their social media
  4. I REALLY LOVE teaching music. Teaching music is awesome.
  5. Driving isn’t that hard. You just have to not step on the brake so hard that the wire breaks, rending the entire car useless.
  6. Getting into troll arguments on twitter is counterproductive and useless . . . unless it’s about homeschooling.
  7. College classes are fun . . . provided you get a good professor, but stILL.
  8. College applications . . . just start them early. For your sanity, for your parents’ sanity, for your dog’s sanity, JUST DO IT.
  9. Spotify is an amazing thing.
  10. I’m old enough to have friends who are married. Not sure how that happened.
  11. E-books are amazing because you don’t have to cart liTERAL books around . . . side effects include staying up until 4am reading
  12. Money doesn’t buy happiness, but . . . it doesn’t hurt either
  13. Money is SO HARD TO GET
  14. DAILY Bible reading is so, SO helpful.
  15. Grades are important. but not thAT important.
  16. Graduation is one of the most exhilarating things ever
  17. It is, in fact, possible, to leave EVERYTHING you’ve ever known and live . . . though maybe not without tears

And that’s it! What’s something you learned recently? Also, e-books–yay or nay?

Blue Sky Tag || ALSO I GRADUATED!!!!!! || 2018 Edition

Hi everyone! Today, I’m doing the Blue Sky Tag again! (If you haven’t read my first tag, check it out here!). Thanks, Hailey, for tagging me!

ALSO GUYS THIS IS THE FIRST BLOGPOST I’M WRITING AS A *GRADUATE*!!!!!!!! I still can’t comprehend it either, honestly.  I FINISHED HIGH SCHOOL. (also this Blue Sky tag was Hailey’s first blogpost post-high school, and I’m very excited about how perfect that is)

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The rules for the tag are: thank the person who tagged you and answer their 11 questions, then tag 11 more people and give them 11 questions to answer. So, here are her questions and my answers!

  1. Why did you start your blog?
    Believe it or not . . . I don’t really know? I initially started it to log some random thoughts that I had, and posted little life updates on it. This blog is now LONG DEAD, but its successor, which is still semi-active, is here.
    THIS blog I started to write more legit blogposts on, once I was more accustomed to writing things to post on the internet. So basically, I started blogging because I’m a chronic oversharer. #oops.
  2. If you could have dinner with any one person who’s alive right now, who would you choose?
    Hmmm…..in creative terms, I would have to say someone who’s pursued their dreams and been successful, so maybe someone like Abbie or dodie. In more practical terms, probably someone who’s done something cool in my field. (MY WORD I’M A COLLEGE STUDENT NOW I’M SO PROFESSIONAL)
  3. Favorite book of the Bible and why?
    For the Old Testament, definitely Proverbs. I love all the pieces of wisdom that are contained within it, in such easy to read form. For the New Testament, it’s less certain, but I really love First Corinthians. It’s such a beautiful book.
  4. Favorite music genre to listen to?
    Well, considering my music just went from pop to christmas to movie soundtrack to musical to kpop to classical? I DON’T KNOW MYSELF??? I think mostly indie (though I’m really bad at finding new artists to listen to SO GIVE ME YOUR RECS). But also a lot of pop. (also whatever Taylor Swift is??)
    Also fun fact about me! 9 times out of 10, I’m shuffling all of my music on Spotify and it’s a wild ride, honestly.
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  5. What’s your earliest memory?
    I have some vague ones of being in the car (particularly one of my mom telling me not to kick the back of the driver’s seat, which, WOW my legs were short enough to be able to kick the top of the back of the driver’s seat). I also have several of my mom playing with me, and I specifically remember when I was practicing piano (age 6 maybe?) and was very frustrated and bit the edge of the music stand. The teeth marks are still there.
  6. What job would you be great at, and what job would you be horrible at?
    I’ve said many times that a job I’d be amazing at would be those minimum-wage customer service jobs? Like those at McDonalds or stuff like that–I love working with people and serving people, and I honestly just think that would be an amazing working environment for me. If it weren’t for the fact that it’s not really sustainable.
    A job I’d be horrible at would be, ironically, what I’m planning on doing: a office type, sealed-away, mad-scientist job. I love working with people, and a job like that wouldn’t be fun, or good for me.
  7. Dream vacation spot?
    Definitely the Maldives or Bora Bora (or Hawai’i. I’m not picky). I’ve not been to any beachy-islands, but they are sO PRETTY. I WANT TO GO SO BADLY. But also Europe, because exPERIENCE.
  8. When writing, are you a plotter or a pantser?
    HA I don’t write! But I would definitely be a pantser, I think, if I were to write. (Case in point: Hailey tagged me in this over a year ago, and I’m just reading the questions and writing the post now . . . less than a day before it goes up!)
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  9. What makes you angry?
    So many things, honestly, but not many of which actually matter (#oops). Some include: people underestimating homeschoolers, people UNDERESTIMATING homeschoolers, PEOPLE UNDERESTIMATING HOMESCHOOLERS, and PEOPLE UNDERESTIMATING HOMESCHOOLERS. It’s a rather extensive list.
  10. What accomplishments in your life are you most proud of?
    THE FACT THAT I FREAKING GRADUATED???? LIKE, I FINISHED HIGH SCHOOL. I AM A FUNCTIONING ADULT WITH A SUSTAINABLE EDUCATION. But aside from that? I placed 7th nationwide once for Science Olympiad, which is super nerdy but which I’m SUPER proud of, if only for the reason that I managed to get that far. I’m also really proud of the memoir I wrote after being in Science Olympiad, and several blogposts (and all of blogging in general). I’m a simple person to please XD
  11. What has God been teaching you lately?
    Along with the fact that I GRADUATED and the fact that I MOVE OUT IN 71 DAYS, it’s just been a huge season of change for me, and it’s been hard coming to face that. uGH.

I tag:

  1. Lisa at Inkwell.
  2. Kara at Beautifully Broken.
  3. Julia at The Barefoot Gal.
  4. Maggie at Dreaming of Guatemala.
  5. Nichole at Thoughtful Inklings.
  6. Vanessa at Simply Me.
  7. Evangeline at An Odd Blog.
  8. Charley at The Miss Charley.
  9. Riley at Riley Aline.
  10. Maddy at Little Bit of Sunshine
  11. Hannah at Plottinger Twist

Go check out all these lovely girls! They all have such fun and amazing blogs. 🙂

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The rules are as follows: thank the person who tagged you and answer their 11 questions, then tag 11 more people and give them 11 questions to answer. (And if I didn’t tag you but you’d like to participate, please do!)

  1. How do you spend your money? Are you more of a saver or a spender, and what takes the most of your money?
  2. What is the pettiest thing you’ve ever done?
  3. Would you rather have a lot of acquaintances or a few close friends, and why?
  4. What book do you first remember reading?
  5. What is your most recent/most recent God-moment? (for those who don’t know, a God-moment is a moment that just works out so perfectly, and afterwards is just so apparent that God had his hands on the whole situation)
  6. If you had to choose between blogging and whatever other creative pursuits you have (writing, YouTube, photography, etc), which would you choose, and why?
  7. What are the books that you recommend to people?
  8. What language do you want to learn/have learned?
  9. What makes you angry? (same question as Hailey’s, because I’m so interested!)
  10. If you could eliminate one weakness from your life right now, what would it be?
  11. What is your top love language?

And that’s it! Thanks, Hailey, again for tagging me! What makes YOU angry? I’m so interested in finding out! ALSO! I’m looking for reads for my summer reading list. Drop me alLLLLLLL your recs!

A Week In My Life || Senior Year Homeschooling || Spring 2018

Hey everyone! I’m very close to finishing out my senior year, and closing out being homeschooled (waHT), and I realized that I never did a day in my life/week in my life type post. So, HERE IT IS!

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(obviously, this is very simplified: every week is different, and I’m not talking about my morning/evening routines, or anything like that. My week is the only thing that is consistent enough to possibly write about)

Sunday

Sunday morning always begins with church: sometimes I help in children’s Sunday school with my mom, and sometimes I play flute in the service, but church always happens on Sunday mornings.

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After church, I go home and eat lunch, clean my room, sometimes do some reading that I didn’t get done during the week.

In the afternoon, there is youth group, something my church puts on for middle and high schoolers, where we talk about topics and play games. I play on the worship team, so I get there a couple hours early to rehearse.

Sunday nights are usually when the deadlines of most of my classes are, so it’s usually spent rushing working to get everything turned in.

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Monday

I have class Monday morning: calculus. Lots of fun. After I get home, I make coffee, unpack my backpack, and write out my to-do list and my assignments for the week. I finish the workbook assignments for my AP Lit class, and then take calculus notes.

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In the evening, there is a Science Olympiad meeting. Usually at these meetings, I work on gathering data and studying. Sometimes I work with the middle school team to get some bugs on their end sorted out.

Tuesday

Tuesday is my favorite day of the week. In the morning, I’m productive: usually doing online class homework, and sometimes cleaning my room. I usually get a lot of offline work done, such as notetaking and problem-solving.

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Then, in the late afternoon and evening, there is band, the highlight of the week! The early part of the night, I help in the flute section of the younger band, or lead a sectional, then later on in the night, I play flute in my band.

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Wednesday

I have class in the morning, and I usually stay and work in the campus library. Usually I comment on blogposts.

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After I get home and eat lunch, I attend my music theory lab, where we do sightsinging and musical dictation, and all that fun stuff. After that, I do more homework, AP lit or music theory usually.

In the evening, I go help at AWANA Cubbies: a Bible memory club that our church hosts. Getting to work with three and four year olds is always fun.

Thursday

Thursday morning I work on school work and stuff, then around noon, I head to my church to fly helicopters for Science Olympiad with my partner. It works better some days than others, but it’s fun (usually).

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Once a month on Thursdays, I have a 4-H meeting, but usually, I head home. I teach piano in the afternoons to some family friends’ kids, which is fun (because I get paid).

In the evening, I attend a youth group discussion, where the seniors in youth groups from around the area get together to discuss what to expect during college, and being a Christian in college, which is always fun.

Friday

I have class again ><

When I get home, I write my blogpost that goes up, then homework, usually calculus and sometimes read.

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Friday afternoons are lots of fun. I go to my Science Olympiad coach’s house and we study for Science Olympiad. Usually I run a powder identification test for forensics, and we identify some rocks and minerals. I get to hang out with my friends and geek out about fun science things.

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Saturday

These are all different, since there are different things I have to go to. Sometimes I have to work at the museum I volunteer at, but today I have a 4-H event to go to.

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Saturday evening, I clean my room, because it’s gotten messy again over the week, and do something relaxing like read a book.

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How did you like this post? What is a typical week in your life like? Are you finishing up the school year too?

States 2018 || Science Olympiad

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5:20.
alarm.

5:40.
roll out of bed, get ready, pack (bc was too tired the night before and bc lazy and bc was writing memoir)

6:12.
driving. very derealized. pretty sunrise. brief moment of being present. happy, almost start tearing up. quickly is derealized again.

7:23.
on campus. it’s familiar from past years, yet worn out by time. parking garage is familiar, but still vaguely horrifying. sees SW’s car. feels oddly comforted. walks on campus, sees rival school students. their shirt colors match ours. see my especial rival. we exchange peace signs and good luck wishes.

7:42.
homeroom. my last one. big room, auditorium like. gets wristband. puts it on lopsided. I feel oddly cheated. sits next to SW for briefing meeting. hooray for Wifi. I try to feel something. I fail.

8:12.
walking events with GM. is passed from behind by a group of three from another school. “sorry, sorry” they mutter. “it’s okay,” I say “experimental design is more important.” realizes how creepy that sounds. walks to rocks building. sees CK and RF. also MM and JC. they are very excited about live snakes.

8:22.
walking towards labs. speed limit 12. because 10 is too slow and 15 is too fast. I overshoot the lab. she’s running out of time. we’re by the gym. we find the side door. runs up 3 flights. BK’s dad leaning over the railing, concerned, on the phone. I’m a terrible chaperone. checks my lab rooms.

8:33.
leaves lab building. sees F parents and A. they’re struggling to keep the door open. it locks on its own. Mr. F holds the door, I find a big rock. problem solved.

8:47.
back at homeroom. talks with Mrs. B about helicopter transportation. parents are highkey stressed. it’ll be fine. but will it?

9:11.
lab apron, goggles, notesheet, box. forensics. it’s a beautiful day outside. an elderly couple out for a walk. what are you carrying? can I see the baby? I turn, surprised. the box with my sweater over it looks like a baby, apparently. I look old enough to have a baby, apparently.

9:24.
SW walks up. GM waits with us for her event. she goes in, we sign in. I’m out of it, and SW gears me up, which is an oddly sweet gesture?

9:35.
instructions. I hear the words but they never make it into my head. SW nudges me. you hear that? no plastics. I didn’t. I’m glad. I’m bad at plastics. we talk about the good test we have. the next table team looks over. yeah that regionals test was messed UP. we didn’t fill in half of it and we got second. they’re good. are we?

9:41.
small scoops of powders into the well plate. SW lights the bunsen burner. we have a real life legit bunsen burner. an actual bunsen burner. I am elated. I know most of what these powders are. SW does chromatography. he screws up one. it’s okay it’s okay, I reassure him.

10:02.
twenty minute call. I’m halfway through the powders. “I suggest you start the analysis” says the proctor. but I’m doing well at these powders. I keep going.

10:08.
powders are done. plastics descriptions matches notesheet, nearly word for word. brilliant. accidentally pour vial of strong base all over the counter. no time for that now. label forensic diagram. everything matches and it. is. glorious.

10:14.
start analysis. I can’t focus. five minute warning. no way can I do this in time. I write, but my focus is not there. four lines in, time is called. we’re sitting right under the proctor, so I can’t sneak a few more sentences. I’d done less than ⅕ of what was supposed to be on the analysis. the analysis is worth 30 percent of the score. “I told you” says SW. I’m sorry, I was doing powders

10:23.
gather everything, toss it back in the bin. leaves room, feeling confident but despondent. we’d been doing so well. but I missed the entire analysis. a flurry of activity distracts me for a second. SW runs off to his next event, I meet GM and CF coming out of theirs. GM needs to run too, so I take her stuff and my forensics box, and CF and I walk to the homeroom. “will your family come to get you?” I ask, wanting to avoid abduction accusations. “no, they probably don’t remember” she says. we arrive at our building. her dad is behind us, smirking. he did remember.

10:32.
“how was it?” chimes concerned parents in the homeroom. I drop the boxes where they belong. terrible, absolutely terrible. we finished about half the test. I have to talk to Mrs C. she’ll listen and calm me down. I leave.

10:36.
she must see the stricken expression on my face. “it was terrible. so, so terrible” I wail. she hugs me. “the powders went great, but I didn’t do the analysis. which is worth 30 percent. it was an awesome test, but we only answered 60 percent. it was terRIBLEEEE”
like I expected, she reassures me. “at least you got the powders. you think you got all of them?” I think I did, but I wasn’t sure. after all, my last powders test I’d only gotten a 65% on. she talks on. I listen, glad for something to fix my mind upon. she talks about growing up, having kids, change. she read my dramatic poem and she relates. we walk back to the homeroom.

10:42.
we walk to the homeroom. I internalize her words. by the time we get to the homeroom, I feel like talking. we sit and talk. about life and music and other events. normal things. I’m glad for the distraction.

11:12.
I get ready to head off. walking through the quad, see MM and lots of other people. we compare how events go. he heads back to grab some food. I continue on to the rocks building.

11:24.
arrive in front of the rocks room. there’s a group inside. I sit down on the floor outside to wait. some other students gather.

11:32.
MM joins me. we sit on the floor. I lean against him. waves of memories. the bookends of my science olympiad years. rocks and minerals.

11:35.
the proctor pokes his head out. you here for rocks? we nod. come on in, we already started. what? confused, we point at the sign. you don’t mean the 11:45 slot, do you? he’s baffled, but hides it. yes. we’ll give you extra time

11:39.
we go in, get our packet. I drop everything and we sit. MM takes over. I do basic binder work. it’s fast. easy. we got this.

11:57.
time for the stations. the pictures are terrible. not even real specimens. the rival school calls over the proctor. they point. no doubt they’re talking about us. our field guide. sure enough, he comes over. with the rules. “I’m sorry, I don’t think that’s allowed.” we’re ready for this. attached to the rings, in any form. we point, our hands bumping. oh. okay.

12:13.
I pick up a mineral. we look at each other. it is what you think it is, right? he writes it down. no words are needed. we need fifteen seconds. we get two minutes. we sit together on the floor. we don’t talk, breathing in sync. time’s up. we move, do it again.

12:24.
we’re done. that was bad, but it could have been worse. the pictures even match the pictures in our binder. we’re not sure of one. it’s not in our binder. we guess. educatedly. we don’t need the extra time. we walk out. that’s it. I drink water. he leaves, grateful for a break.

12:31.
I walk around. speed limit 12. it’s so warm. Mr. C is there. no one is clamoring for his attention. I go up to him, tell him about my day. he hears about rocks, gets all excited, whips out his phone. it’s okay. we know rocks. he calms down.

12:38.
the back gym. SW is there. so is mama. and Mrs. B. and our helicopters. I sit next to SW. we check our phones. time passes. we’re on a time crunch. I set up everything. focus, focus. I am focusing. do you want food? I thought you wanted me to focus. calm down. it’ll be okay.

12:45.
I go check in. where is KB? people start coming in. red shirts. the Fs, the Ws, the Ks. I go sign in. what team are you? I say it. one of the last times I ever will. the last time I get to fly with these people. he’s so nice.

12:52.
there he is.
KB doesn’t have blue hair? oh. we go stand in line. we’re second in line. they wind, meticulous, slow. it actually flies. they relax. it drifts up to the ceiling, floats back down. second flight. KB pokes me. electric drill, he whispers. I smirk.

1:03.
more people trickle in. the wall is lined with red shirts. I text Mrs. C. helicopters in 10 minutes. she texts right back. coming. Mrs M. is timing? people walk back and forth. I try to shield the helicopter with my body. if anyone breaks it we’re done for.

1:13.
still in line. we’re next. they fly. I’m keyed up but relaxed. KB and I stand in our own little bubble. action is all around. we’re like new parents guarding our child with our bodies and our lives. sees my especial rival. of course she’s here. she wouldn’t miss it for the world.

1:22.
our turn. I take a deep breath, unload my arms, clamp the torque meter. do we have paper towels? he shakes his head. my mind whirls. it flashes. the box top. I snatch off the lid. there it is. we wind, load. I walk to the center of the room. where? KB shrugs. it doesn’t matter. it won’t go up straight anyways. I close my eyes. this is it. five…four…three. I let go, swing my arms back. two…one. and it goes. unsteadily, but upwards. it rests on an edge. the red wall lets out a collective gasp. it’s staying up. it teeters on the edge. a swoop, it lands flat. everyone exhales.

1:28.
second flight. she catches my eye, gives me a thumbs up. I give her a thumbs up back. we wind, load. we have a good flight under our belt. this one could put us on stage, or even, on top of the stack. my last ever flight. KB counts down, loud and clear. the release. it flies, but not how we want it. it flies straight. but downwards. I look at him. I’m so sorry, KB. I’m so sorry. I didn’t check. why did I not check? it’s all my fault. how did I forget to check? I’ve never forgotten to check before. we walk out, in a daze.

1:31.
my hands are shaking. a tap on my shoulder. can I get you to sign this? I nod, numbly, scrawl an illegible version of my name. 1.33. we could have flown so much better, but also so much worse. you know where you went wrong, don’t you? of course I do. I’ll be thinking about it for years. I’ve seen lots of those, he tries to help. but it doesn’t help. we’d thought we’d be better than those. we know what we’re doing. or at least, we should.

1:39.
somehow, I find myself in front of the chem lab room. SW must have led me. I have all my stuff. we look at the comic wall. all I see is the helicopter. driving straight down. I need to shake it off, move on. I have one more chance. my last ever event. we gear up, sign in.

1:43.
we start. everything looks familiar, but I don’t know it. SW takes over. okay, so what you need to do is . . . I obey. he bends over the packet, intent. water boils. my hands are shaking.

2:13.
none of the math is checking out. I don’t even know the multiple choice. this is not going to turn out well. I start tearing up, but catch myself. not now. wait. there will be time to cry. nothing makes sense. both of us have forgotten this.

2:36.
that’s it. we did terribly, but I cling to a shred of hope. we walk back to the homeroom. I’m starving. what do we have to eat? mama pulls out a costco salad. God bless mothers. a tap on my shoulder. do you want to go outside? it’s Mrs. C. we go, stand around, talk. the boys are playing football. AH is studying for her government exam.

3:04.
RF and I sit on the bench. it faces bushes. the scenic bench. I eat my salad. it’s good. we talk. how warm. MM slams to the concrete. ouch. the peanut gallery has comments. the game resumes. we talk. stupid little things.

3:18.
everybody disappears, suddenly. Mr. C is back. MM takes a picture. the three of us on the bench. none of them turn out well.

3:21.
we file in. my last debrief. how was your day? terrible, but we all knew that already. I know I’m being hard on myself, but it’s my last tournament. I need to make it the perfect day, and it hasn’t been. none of the building events failed, which is encouraging.

3:41.
we’re done. more accurately, I’m done. dear heavenly father. a rush of tears.

3:46.
a flurry of activity. we clear out the room, load up our arms. I hand off the forensics box to Mr. C. he needs help carrying things out. I grab the box, stand there. CK swoops it out of my arms.

3:52.
we walk out. my family deserted me. team or sushi? what? team or sushi? we walk to the parking lot.

3:59.
the cool darkness of the garage. I outline the security story to RF. she laughs. her father works here now, apparently. we see SW and his dad. they’re looking for the C’s car. I find the key fob in my hand. there’s a gray van. we walk around, try the door, peer inside. the windows are dark. that’s not it. we walk. I push the panic button. the distant echo. we walk up, see the flashing lights. the C’s and the K’s are walking towards it. Mr. C is laughing. I hand him the keys.

4:04.
we find our car. daddy and D aren’t there. I don’t have service, but call him anyways. they’re coming. we load up the car, and walk.

4:08.
walking through campus, relying on memory. it really is a beautiful day. do you want to split a bowl with me? it’s P. yes, of course! where is chipotle. crossing the street. RF trips spectacularly. we see it. chipotle.

4:18.
orders food. can you order for me? sure, what do you want. I grab my bowl, join GM and other people at the tall counter. the most surprising smorgasbord of people–SW and his dad, Mrs. J and her twins, GM, AM, MM, AH, me. RF comes in with a bagel.

4:32.
they’re looking through my bullet journal. you didn’t get anything done. yes, GM, I know. you also know.

5:04.
start walking back. the campus is all uphill. it’s lovely seeing the campus without rain. what’s on campus today? some high school thing. you go here? no, I’m homeschooled. oh cool! so are we! trashcan.

5:24.
we’re sitting on the wrong side of the room. we should move. Mr. C refuses. we have all the results ready! hooray for competent administration. they’re still muddling around. I thought they were ready? the small F comes. sits next to me, shares my chair. so does P. he’s subbing for JK. he’s so excited.

5:34.
we start. we get first on our first event. a good start. next. where is AH? I run out, try to spot her. it’s her event. I hear she got fourth from behind me. she comes in. both her events finish.

5:46.
second in rocks???? how. I’m screaming. we go up in a daze. how did we mess up that badly? if rocks went that poorly, how did the rest of my events go?

5:49.
FIRST IN FORENSICS? How???

5:50.
middle school got first in rocks. how.

5:57.
we knew we were doing poorly, but this is exceptionally poorly.

6:05.
they pause. not really sure why; they said they have all the scores. this is exciting, says the small F. I used to think this was really boring, but now I understand!

6:09.
it’s KB’s events. where is he? I run out to see. his mom is pulling up. we go in. he got a ribbon. game on. helicopters. if we didn’t get first, I’m getting up and walking out. we get first.

6:42.
we got first. both teams. small school league, but still. chem lab didn’t get on the board, we’re not surprised. photos. so many photos. and hugs. we sing. to God be the glory, great things he has done.

7:04.
we start walking out to the cars. we’re all going the same way, why are we walking in different directions? I need to go to the bathroom, get water.

7:31.
start home. it’s still light out. my phone buzzes. want to stop for ice cream? we decide. I text everyone. some respond, some don’t.

8:29.
I sit there. it’s getting dark. I’m so derealized. I’m too dehydrated to actually cry, but I’m close.

8:32.
we pull in the parking lot, see red shirts. we order. the little ones go in the playground. I sit there, everyone else talking, not wanting the day to end.

9:22.
my phone buzzes. JC’s water broke, she’s having her baby! I’m so excited. we chatter more.

9:51.
some last pictures. we leave. my heart is full. that ending was perfect.

Currently: February 2018

Hello everyone! It’s time for another Currently blogpost! Today we’re talking about what we’re currently finishing, subscribing, wishlisting, watching, and hearting with Anne in Residence!

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up high school! I got my senior pictures done a couple days ago, and I have about 10 weeks left of school, which is bitter sweet. I’m eager to be DONE with it all but also want to keep on going with the schedule that I have.

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to college mail/news in general? It’s not very applicable to me right now, but I’ve been getting acceptance/otherwise letters and people that need confirmation and all that jazz. So fun. *eyeroll*

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BOOKS BOOKS BOOKS!!! I finally got into NetGalley (and with that, Kindle books in general) and got approved for WAY TOO MANY BOOKS!!! Which is slightly concerning since I already have 38 books on my TBR…and too many more on my wishlist.

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YouTube! My three favorite vlogging families, Aspyn and Parker, OKBaby and KKandBabyJ are together, and it’s so much fun! One of them is pregnant (<-Keren), one of them may be (the conspiracy theories!) and one *should* be (but is not). 😀

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My lattes!! I got a latte maker for Christmas (like I’ve mentioned before), and I’ve been trying to make a latte (either of the coffee variety or else of the the chai variety)…someday I’ll get to the fancy pouring things XD.

So! What are you all currently up to? Comment down below and let me know!